Wow. 6 years. Just, wow. And my last real activity was over 3,5 years ago to boot.

This account, and deviantART at large, serve as a memory of old times. Good times. Times that seem to be all over since long ago.

So, what happened really? Well, I guess I just... got out more. In real life. I started attending local anime conventions (starting with UppCon:07 in Uppsala, Sweden), and that had a snowball effect on my social life to say the least. I traveled alot, made alot of new friends and seemingly had the time of my life; especially during my 3-month-stay in Japan as a foreign exchange student at Hokkaido Tokai University, Sapporo.

But somewhere along the way things went from good to bad, and increasingly worse. Among the things that happened, I kept failing my studies in economics because I realized a bit too late that I had no ambition or even interest in that line of career, I ended up having my heart broken too many times in a too short timeframe for my own well-being and I was lied to and betrayed by people I held close more times than I can count; as a result of the latter two I grew increasingly more cynical, bitter and more of a bad person in general.

But what probably pains me the most is a realization I made quite recently; I'm slipping away. Slipping away from all the friends I made, both online and offline. Back when I was "young online", so to speak, I had quite a handful of close friends who more or less were the foundation of my social life. Now I barely even exchange a few words a year with them. I even stopped talking altogether with the one who probably was the main influence in the beginning of my online life.

Could be my "fault", could be theirs. In the end however, I can't help but feel neglected. As if I once was an important part of their lives, but have now been reduced to nothing more than a small footnote. And I hate it. It's selfish of me, but I hate it. I want to be more than a footnote again.

Wonder if anyone I know will read this. I mean, I never made a single update on deviantART for 3,5 years, so... ah well, in the end, you could say I'm back... I guess.